When faced with being right or wrong, I don’t need to be right, I just don’t like to be wrong……
I sit and sometimes ask myself, ‘What really brought us here’? Moving across country. Leaving behind jobs, friends, memories, a sense of belonging and purpose that would permeate my being most days. I tell myself we did it for our kids, for our sanity, to move out of the inner city, to move away from a city whose population is pushing over a million, to a town whose population is roughly 50,000.
To a different culture, to a different way of thinking and doing. Do I fit in? Am I really the chameleon I thought I was? Have I adapted or have I accepted?
In watching the sunset this evening with an odd purplish pink glow not accustomed to being seen in the north and a warm breeze I caught myself believing all of these things for just a moment. In reality, I understand I moved to make others happy. My wife, my kids at that point in time, and our relatives. I’m not convinced I made myself any more or less happy, I am convinced that if I am able to do this, I can do anything. That in doing this I have in truth set myself free in some odd way.
I went to an NA meeting last week on a whim and some guilt. When I am at my lowest, God, as I understand him, is at the top of his game. A guy at the meeting asked me to sponsor him. I am back in the solution again, helping someone else and in turn that helps me.
Work has been steady and my wife is frustrated at her temporary placement.
My son continues to believe that school here is a social junket and has received detentions to remind him it’s not.
My daughter continues to sneak and talk to boys we wouldn’t approve of.
An oddly enough, all seems right in the bizarro world I call reality.
Our wedding anniversary is fast approaching. It is the 26th of this month. We will be married 19 years. I love my wife more today than I did yesterday. I am truly a blessed man. I am open for suggestions for gifts.
I hope this post finds you all well. Special holler out to David and Elizabeth who went to Disney to celebrate a late Honeymoon. I hope they had fun on Space Mountain…..the ride that is!