Just Another Recovering Person

Most of the time I don’t think about dying….Until recently.

Ask yourself this question……
Am I sure?

Am I sure of what happens? Do I just close my eyes and that’s it?
Maybe some residual electric sparks in the neurons of the brain cause the ‘White Light’ effect? Maybe I just drift off to a sleep and dream through infinity? Am I really expected to believe that I will arrive at a gate for admission into ‘Heaven’?
Is there a physical place such as a Heaven or Hell or is that what we create here on earth with the time we are given?
Am I willing to roll the dice and gamble that I know I am right? I mean I won’t have a lawyer with me to argue my case when I die. I don’t think litigation is allowed in the cemetery.

Just some questions I have pondered the last few days. I really don’t have any answers for you, maybe I’m looking for them myself. I think it’s kind of arrogant of me to presume that I am here for the time I am given only to close my eyes and that’s it.

Life over the past week has pretty much sucked. I don’t know any other way to put it. The kids have been terrible, work has been a pain in the ass, and my wife is going through her own doubts and fears. The only thing I hold onto is that I know this is temporary. I keep telling myself something will change, I just don’t know what or when.

I keep pushing on. I’d like to write more, but my mood is completely sour and I just don’t have it in me right now. I just wanted to check in and say hello.

Take Care.
Bob D.


Comments on: "There’s No Litigation in the Cemetery…" (2)

  1. Hey Bob,

    I’ve not been online for the last six weeks ago – my life, like yours, took over and I had no time to check in or write on my blog.

    I was sorry to read things are sucking right now. You’re right when you say things are temporary. I often try and remember the ‘Everything has a beginning, a middle and an end’ mantra. I guess you are in the middle of it right now.

    As for death. I have been thinking about it too alot lately in relation to my sister Hannah who is in bad shape. I wonder if death would be a release for her pain. She said she wanted to die. I can’t bear to think about it but who are we do decide for others.

    I hope we can meet again in a few days and both be more cheerful!

    I am thinking of you Bob and knowing you, you’ll pull through this and wonder at life instead of death before you know it.

    Nora x

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