Just Another Recovering Person

I was watching TV the other night and an ad came on and caught my attention….

‘I was an addict for 10 years; I know what you’re going through. We don’t offer a 12 Step Program, but rather a cure for addiction’.
The ad then began to show windswept beaches, aroma therapy, acupuncture, and beautiful people in white robes. I didn’t quite catch the name of the place but I believe it is in California. A cure! A cure has been found? Why wasn’t I informed of this? Certainly it would have made the bottom ‘ticker’ on CNN. Wouldn’t have Oprah or Barbara Walters had a special report on this?

All jokes aside, a cure? Really?

There was something wrong with me, but now it’s fixed. I don’t ever have to worry about it again. I can go about my life never having to worry that I might kill myself or someone else in a drug induced stupor. I don’t ever have to worry about stealing, or lying, or cheating. It won’t ever cross my mind that a drink, pill, or fix doesn’t sound like that bad of an idea to help me in a situation. My loved ones won’t ever have to worry about my condition again….

Our literature talks about how we are given a ‘daily reprieve’. For me this is better than the terminology of ‘cure’.  There were certain medicines that were introduced into rehab a few years ago that were mislabeled as ‘cures’ for those addicted to opiates. Addicts found themselves with perhaps less cravings, but with the same behavior patterns. We talk constantly about changing the very things that brought us to the point of surrender, acceptance of ourselves, and our reality. I have no idea of how a cure can be offered to an ever changing dilemma….ourselves.

We have entered into a new year and the more things change, the more they stay the same. I continue to remain vigilant. My hopes and dreams remain the same. I know there are challenges ahead, joys and sorrows. This year will be a year of change for us as our daughter graduates high school. We have decisions to make both financially and personally. I am tired but well. I hope you are well too.

Talk to you soon.
Bob D.


Comments on: "There was something wrong with me…" (1)

  1. Bob, the 12 step program claims that you CANNOT get clean unless you believe in some kind of supernatural power. As much as I value all the recovery that these programs have given, I will always be yearning for another program to come along that does not take so many of our atheist and agnostic Americans and forces them at their most vulnerable to convert to believers just so they can get clean. I know nothing of this California program but I won’t knock anything if it has a chance at teaching people to believe in themselves rather than a HP.

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