If I only had 4 more hands and two more heads…..
I’ve been busy, really busy. It’s good though. Wanted to let you in on a few things.
Friday went out to dinner with the family and had a nice evening. I came back home and decided to go out to a late meeting. I don’t normally do that but on Friday I was missing that feeling of being connected. I went to the meeting and a guy I had been sponsoring showed up after a 2 month relapse.
He had gotten involved with another person in the program. Both of them with under 6 months clean, and well, they ended up both using together. She came back about 2 weeks ago.
This is just another example of getting involved in a ‘relationship’ well before the time is right. I spoke with him after the meeting. He said he wanted to kill himself, that he felt like he couldn’t recover in this area, and on and on.
I told him that he relapsed, traded his recovery for some comfort, and it was time to move on. I told him he was full of shit if he thought running to another state would ‘fix’ this. I told him he used because he wanted to use. Some may say this is harsh but this was something that had been brewing since about 30 days of coming into the program. There are a million excuses to use over and none of them are worth it.
Saturday my daughter and I helped a friend move.
Sunday the dryer broke (again) and put me behind in washing clothes for our trip. The service man is coming out today. I went to the Sunday night meeting and had a good meeting.
I have been reading and writing like crazy. I have been reading Chapters 3,4, and 5 of new literature the NA fellowship is working on. I have mixed feelings about Chapter 3 and Chapter 4 was excellent.
I have begun writing rough drafts of 2 chapters for a book. If it goes somewhere that would be great, if it doesn’t, oh well. I will post an excerpt of it tomorrow.
I watched the movie ‘Precious’ on Sunday. I haven’t cried like that in a while. Now I know why Monique’ received an Academy Award. That was a powerful movie. It still has me thinking.
What an unbelievable performance. I saw her acceptance speech in which she said something like, “Sometimes you have to forego what is popular to do what is right”. Sounds like more than just an acceptance speech, sounds like sound words of wisdom.
I read a lot of posts on here about Addiction. When I first started blogging there were BS posts about addicted to MarioCart, Starbucks, and Foot Massages. Now the tone has changed. There are a lot of folks, particularly loved ones and friends of addicts who are looking for support. I continue to add them to my blogroll and hope they can link up together via my page and maybe gain some insight on addiction from each other and from me. It’s not that I am some “Wizard of Recovery” but I hope that if my story helps you understand what is happening or has happened then I feel that my own existence is somehow transformed, that my future has been changed. That somehow it was all worth it.
Take Care…Bob D.